The Pain

I did terribly in the recent MUET examination. I only obtained a Band4 missing the Band5 by one mark. I'm still in disbelief because more than a couple non literate students managed a band5. All I can feel now is, wtf! I happen to not be the only one who faced this, but several others. No, we do not understand why but I guess this is the standard of Malaysian Education. Lack of consistency. So, you know what? Fuck you MUET. Anyway, although I cried like crazy yesterday, I have to now move on. Quoting my friend Revathi when we were in form3,
" LIfe's a bitch, so Fuck it ! "

I hope I'll move on fast. Moving on to another topic, July is a month loaded with bithdays of people close to my heart. Just want to take this opportunity to wish a few people happy birthday :

1. Daddy
2. Christine
3. Sally
4. Leonie
5. Abbysha
6. Hao Yi
7. and the many more to count.

I really wish I never knew you. Coz it's hurting me. Things just ain't the way I hope for.

Lei Wei had the latest added into her addition.
Last we heard was that Bugs Bunny is a Cat and now,

NEMO is a SHARK. haha!

Her justification, Nemo is a name. I can use it to name anything I like. Oh yeah, and we believe you Lei Wei. We know you really thought Nemo was a Shark. Haha.

I wanna be more than what I am to you right now. Coz you just mean too much for us to be ordinary.

Happy Birthday Daddy!
you've been my superhero (:
for the times i cried,
through the sleepless nights,
enduring my pain,
tolerating my nonsense,
giving me more than enough,
looking into my problems,
saying no to what's wrong.
Always a step infront of me,
to catch me before I fall.

Hey world, I have the Best Father in the entire universe!

p/s: friends? what are they?

i feel so lifeless and sad. i don't know who to turn to. why do i bother helping people sometimes. i hate everyone around me now. most importantly, why did your heart change?

The disturbing matter now. First, if we have problems with people, we should face the matter unless we don't care about it anymore and if we don't, then we shouldn't talk about it anymore. Especially telling people who aren't close to us and people who isn't involved at all, yeah, real mature. It's okay if you want to hate me or if you think anything bad about me, I just don't care anymore, but telling people is just plain childish. Atleast I didn't go about gossiping or complaining. Coz I didn't want people to think anything bad about you either and I wouldn't want to jump into conclusion that I wasn't wrong AT ALL. I think it really is a two way thing. I'm sure I made some mistakes but that doesn't mean that you made none. So stop acting all so upright and go about telling people things about why you are angry or unhappy about me when certain accusations aren't even legitimate and more importantly, was unfairly put into my mouth. Afterall, it is already over. The most unfair thing is that I never made such complains and I get blamed for it for making you angry. And before you go about COMPLAINING to your friend, can you please atleast find out the reasons and truth behind why certain things happened. Transportation was a problem. Not everyone was so eased with transport issues and there was unforeseen matters that caught the few of us held up. Atleast I ran my errands well before I left. So, what's your problem. I hate people who accuse before even finding out things properly. Yeah, real professional eh. Anyway, I don't want a part of this lingo anymore. You can count me out.



On another note: If you wander off too far, my love will get you home. I miss you.

says Lei Wei.

Today in the car on the way home from school, Lei Wei stated the most hysterical thing we've heard in a long time. Says Lei Wei,

Bugs Bunny's a Cat!!!

Hahahahhahahahaha.... a cat!

Funniest thing I heard in a long time.

p/s: she's Lei Wei, my Super Confident Nerd.

Hate it that people simply move my things at their own expense. Come early to get the place you wish for. Not simply dumping me to the corner at your own convinience.

Just give me a break.
I need my space.
I'm suffocating.
I don't want to take any blames.
I just need my time.

I don't want to hear rants.
I don't want to hear complains.
I don't want to tolerate apologies.
I don't want to know a thing.
I tried, you pushed me away.
I don't want to make an effort.
Not anymore, atleast for now.

Ok. Enough of that. The above doesn't refer one bit to The Clan.

THE CLAN is the happiest bunch of family I have. Everything seems stressful and bad but you guys make me so happyyyyy. I guess I almost forgot how great things were when we spent so much time together till last Saturday coz we haven't met up in a long time. Haha. You guys remind me why live's worth the fun (: No one can replace you. I mean it. I <3 You!